"You are beautiful."
I've always been curious about the reasoning behind those words. What do they see in me to react in such a way by just looking at me? You can hear it in their voice, their sincerity and almost astonishment, so it must be true to some extent.
Sure, I've always felt that I'm pretty, but never by any standards beautiful enough to be gawked at.
I wonder what people see when they look at me. I wonder how different it is from how I see my own reflection. Do they see that one of my eyes is smaller than the other? Do they see that my jaw is slightly offset? Do they see that I have acne hiding throughout my face, or that one eyebrow isn't arched quite the same as the other? Or do they just see someone entirely different? Perhaps my flaws are noticed by me and me alone.
They say that if you were to see yourself walking down the street, you wouldn't recognize it as you. Isn't that surreal?
"You are disgustingly beautiful."
That is what I was told today.
Disgustingly beautiful.
I stood in front of the mirror when I got home and tried to see the disgustingly beautiful woman he saw, the woman that just woke up with the natural hair and beautiful, beautiful face and the perfect womanly body, but she wasn't there for one reason or another, which is fine.
"You are disgustingly beautiful."
I want to know how other people see me. I don't want to be told by someone what they see when they look at me, for only they truly understand their descriptions. I want to know. I want to see from their eyes and feel their reactions when they turn a corner and see me in front of them. How strange would it be to truly see yourself from a different perspective? I wonder which people (or even which kinds of people) look at me and shiver and taste bile on their tongue. I wonder who see me and feel a softening in their heart. And what about me causes such reactions (the way I walk, my smile, my obnoxious laugh)? I wonder what my voice or even my laugh sounds like to other people. I want to feel how I look and how I sound, for it is obviously different from how I view myself.
I'm curious as to if, after such an experiment, I would feel better or worse about myself. Would my reflection change drastically or would it stay the same?
If I saw myself from the eyes of someone else, would I become disgustingly beautiful?
I've always been curious about the reasoning behind those words. What do they see in me to react in such a way by just looking at me? You can hear it in their voice, their sincerity and almost astonishment, so it must be true to some extent.
Sure, I've always felt that I'm pretty, but never by any standards beautiful enough to be gawked at.
I wonder what people see when they look at me. I wonder how different it is from how I see my own reflection. Do they see that one of my eyes is smaller than the other? Do they see that my jaw is slightly offset? Do they see that I have acne hiding throughout my face, or that one eyebrow isn't arched quite the same as the other? Or do they just see someone entirely different? Perhaps my flaws are noticed by me and me alone.
They say that if you were to see yourself walking down the street, you wouldn't recognize it as you. Isn't that surreal?
"You are disgustingly beautiful."
That is what I was told today.
Disgustingly beautiful.
I stood in front of the mirror when I got home and tried to see the disgustingly beautiful woman he saw, the woman that just woke up with the natural hair and beautiful, beautiful face and the perfect womanly body, but she wasn't there for one reason or another, which is fine.
"You are disgustingly beautiful."
I want to know how other people see me. I don't want to be told by someone what they see when they look at me, for only they truly understand their descriptions. I want to know. I want to see from their eyes and feel their reactions when they turn a corner and see me in front of them. How strange would it be to truly see yourself from a different perspective? I wonder which people (or even which kinds of people) look at me and shiver and taste bile on their tongue. I wonder who see me and feel a softening in their heart. And what about me causes such reactions (the way I walk, my smile, my obnoxious laugh)? I wonder what my voice or even my laugh sounds like to other people. I want to feel how I look and how I sound, for it is obviously different from how I view myself.
I'm curious as to if, after such an experiment, I would feel better or worse about myself. Would my reflection change drastically or would it stay the same?
If I saw myself from the eyes of someone else, would I become disgustingly beautiful?